**This was supposed to post yesterday, but for some reason it didn't upload from my phone**
I've noticed that I feel really emotional before big races like this. In some ways the specter of my first marathon in Phoenix in 2009 still haunts me, it was such a horrendous experience. Pittsburgh went much better, but still was far from perfect and I under performed it, I feel. So now there's more riding on this. This is the race I was supposed to do last year, then bailed on after a miserable summer of training and disappointing races. My training has been beautiful, there's no real reason for me to not meet my goals. But I find myself putting all this pressure on myself, all this heaps upon heaps of anxiety, and find myself just wanting to crawl under the covers and ignore the clock that's ticking down to start time tomorrow morning. I get too much into my head with these races and I need to remember that tomorrow morning, I'm going to run the best race I can for the day I'm given.
The day wasn't all spent in an anxiety induced state of hysteria. The kids had great fun at the kids races, and I bought these beauties at the expo. The only thing that could make me happier is if they were stability shoes (they're not, so they'll just be for short distances, and looking super cute).
I've noticed that I feel really emotional before big races like this. In some ways the specter of my first marathon in Phoenix in 2009 still haunts me, it was such a horrendous experience. Pittsburgh went much better, but still was far from perfect and I under performed it, I feel. So now there's more riding on this. This is the race I was supposed to do last year, then bailed on after a miserable summer of training and disappointing races. My training has been beautiful, there's no real reason for me to not meet my goals. But I find myself putting all this pressure on myself, all this heaps upon heaps of anxiety, and find myself just wanting to crawl under the covers and ignore the clock that's ticking down to start time tomorrow morning. I get too much into my head with these races and I need to remember that tomorrow morning, I'm going to run the best race I can for the day I'm given.
The day wasn't all spent in an anxiety induced state of hysteria. The kids had great fun at the kids races, and I bought these beauties at the expo. The only thing that could make me happier is if they were stability shoes (they're not, so they'll just be for short distances, and looking super cute).
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